After a long and eventful year, I can finally say that I'M PREGNANT. I'm 12 weeks along and I still can't fully believe it. As most of you know, my husband and I have been patiently praying and trying for the past year, to no avail. The day after Christmas I got the surprise of a lifetime and realized God had finally answered our many prayers.
I still get daily traffic, emails, and messages from other women on the fertility journey. Some tell me about their miracle babies and how they were once in my shoes, and some tell me how they are still walking down that long and difficult path. What I've learned in this past year, is as woman we are not alone. I know when I first started trying and saw announcement after announcement, it broke me. Little did I know, there is a whole community of woman just like me praying for the day they can be mothers.
In a weird way I am grateful we had to wait so long to have a baby. Personally, I think it helped me appreciate every little thing more. It helped me value my time with my husband and grow closer together, it helped me focus on other areas of my life that I had put on the back burner because of this one golden dream, and it also helped me appreciate what a true, raw blessing a baby really is.
I have been lucky enough to not have any morning sickness, and have really only been feeling drained + the effects of a small bladder. All little things that I couldn't be happier to feel, because it means God finally chose me to be a mother. I have a favorite quote and it is what I refer back to often.
While I don't want to dwell so much on the journey it took to get here, I want to just express that for those still on it, I am praying for you. It's not easy and I know the feeling of seeing pregnancy announcements popping up all around you. But like I said in my last post, "any new life coming onto this earth is a joyous occasion".
I cannot wait to share more of this pregnancy journey with you all! I am due late August and just announced the big news publicly yesterday. I wanted to keep the announcement simple, because I have seen one too many posts that are a little over the top. Below is how we announced! Thank you to everyone who has prayed for us and reached out to me. It truly means so much and I'm grateful to be surrounded by such wonderful people. J + I are overjoyed to be parents and I am looking forward to documenting it all on our blog.
We went to our first appointment at 9 weeks and I was so nervous! The nurse was so nice and made me feel comfortable! I was afraid they would have to do the internal ultrasound and that I wouldn't be able to tell what our baby was... Wrong and wrong! She talked to us for a little bit on our backgrounds and genetics, gave me a quick exam, and then it was time for the ultrasound. She put the ultrasound wand on my belly and instantly on the screen our little baby was there: head, body, little arms and legs. I couldn't believe how human it looked, because I've heard woman say it looks alien-like. We then heard the heartbeat, which is the sweetest sound I've ever heard, and I just laid there in awe looking at the screen showing me our baby. We were both pretty quiet and more so just in amazement as the whole thing played out. We go for our next appointment at 13 weeks which is next Monday so I can't wait to share more then!
For now, here is the first bump update that I filmed at 8 weeks.