I treaded my way to the bathroom and almost scared myself. I am the definition of a hot mess.
It’s noon and I still haven’t done my hair, makeup, or changed out of my pj’s.
In fact, I have yet to brush my teeth.
Some may look at me and think I have just lost it and sunk into a depression. In reality, it’s just my way of dealing with my husband being gone.
My routine has been messed up and my best friend, my everyday partner, is now on the other side of the world: and I’m a hot mess.
Not every day is like this, trust me. Some days I spend all day out of the house, running errands and keeping myself occupied. But, then there’s days like today.
Where I would give anything to have him walk through the front door and give me a big hug.
I even miss the bathroom light being on while he is getting ready, even though I complained every time.
On occasion, I’m so tempted to stay in bed the entire day and watch Hulu. Other days I want to work out so I am in the best shape possible for when he gets home.
This is just the reality of when your husband is gone. You are a time bomb of emotions and sometimes you just need to eat pizza for breakfast and have chocolate for dinner.
Just know you are not alone, as so many military spouses feel the similar need to just be 'bumming it'. While a long distance separation like this can bring you down, there is so many positive things that I, and other milspouses, have learned.
I feel like during this deployment I learned so much about myself. I feel like I grew as a person. I learned more about who I am, what I want, and a little about what makes me tick. If you are currently going through a deployment, use this time to better yourself and to learn about yourself. - excerpt from Singing Through the Rain
I am just sharing the reality of the situation. I don't want to sugarcoat anything because it does stink big time.
I am grateful I have some family and friends around me, but I find myself just needing my alone time and wishing he was here.
It's been a few months now, and I thought I was better at dealing with this, since we already went through a long deployment. But really, how can you ever get used to spending time away from your husband?
What are some realities of your husband being gone?